holy despair

I want to talk tonight about holy hunger, or holy despair. When I was 16 years old I had an encounter with the Lord, I knew that there was something strange because the first time I was not speaking in church, right? Today one comes to church and the young people are talking and playing, chewing gum, playing around, poking around, but that day in 1996 the Holy Spirit had my attention, you know when God has your attention, He has your attention. I had a divine encounter, I'm not going to get into that part of it, but in 1997, I was so hungry for God. In 1997 I was hungry for God, because when God touched me the first time I prayed for six, seven, eight hours, sang in tongues for 3 hours and then interpreted tongues for three hours, and they closed the room, and my Grandma called me, she told me get out of the room, you have to eat, come out of the room! But I was eating in my spirit, I was feeding in the word of God.

Holy desperation in 1997 I said to God: I want to see the fulfillment, I want to see what You called me to do, I want to see the manifestations that you promised me, I don't want to play for the sick and then they die. Praying for the sick and they did not call me because they were dying, I want to see the prophetic fulfillment that You have promised me, I began to pray and walk the streets of New York, whoever saw me in those days believed that I was crazy, speaking in tongues, walking down the street, in the middle of the street, someone told me brother or you are angry or you are angry, I told him no I am praying, because there was, the bible says deep calls into the deep, when God calls that depth that calls to the depths, and it is something very personal, very private, and I began to see God as a Lord, You can use this skinny Dominican guy from New York City, then maybe, you know here I am, I want You to use me, I'm desperate for Your presence, when it began to happen, when it began to happen, when we were praying in our room my wife and I had two children, the presence of God would come into the room in such a powerful way.

I called the time the seed of the visitation. And when God visits someone, a person, you have to take advantage of that visitation, the presence of God would come, and sometimes I had such a strong experience that while praying I could smell the aroma of the presence of the Holy Spirit, I could smell the presence of God that would come into our room, and sometimes I would see oil falling on the walls, and an experience so powerful that it has taken us around the world, from New York City to the Bronx, when you have a call from God you don't there is no devil, there is no person who can stop what God has called you to do.

And we began to see demon-possessed people being freed, instantly, by the power of God, people with arthritis, a variety of diseases, being healed by the glory, the power of God. But there was such a hunger and I'm still hungry today for more of his presence, because the praise of God is what you have the more you want of God, it's a holy dissatisfaction you never satisfy, you always want more and more and more and more, more of his glory, more of his presence, and when you get so filled with God everything that is not God has to leave your life automatically. It automatically leaves. Right now they are pulling us from India, have a past offering in India, we need the Holy Spirit in India, we have a beach property in India that can fit one million people in India, and I told our church in Florida hey if you don't want, the nations are hungry, they want, he says, Pastor Nick, we have so many people, we need the Holy Spirit.

Do not do anything without the Holy Spirit in your life, the Lord Jesus said do nothing until I go to Jerusalem, don't do anything to your fullfill, until you are clothed with power from on high. The Holy Spirit is not a tongue, the Holy Spirit is not a chill, oops my hair stands on end. The Holy Spirit is not hair-raising, the Holy Spirit is not fire, it is not wind but it moves like the wind, but it burns like fire, and sometimes I feel those chills as I am feeling now, and sometimes I feel cold, hot, chills, I feel like the skin is going to peel off my bones. That's why when we get to heaven we're going to have a glorified body, because sometimes the presence of God has fallen so hard on me that I can't even stand still.

There are many people who say, but why do you fall? Because I just can't stand up, why do you fall? because you can't stand up. But where is that in the Bible?, well there are many instances in the Bible, Ezequiel, Daniel, when that angel appeared to him he fell as dead, when soldiers came to look for Jesus, we came to look for Jesus of Nazareth, and everybody was flying in the Spirit, everybody fell down, and they get up again, we are looking for Jesus of Nazareth, I am and everybody fell back into the Holy Spirit, He was using who He was, I am that I am, the living Word becomes flesh, you could be satisfied by just coming to church, and come back next Sunday and get another message.

The measure of your hunger determines the measure of God in your life. When I was younger I would hear the word God as God drew near to me, and I would drew near to Him. Come close to me and I will come close to you, but you have to take a first step. But the Lord will meet you in the middle. Many of us are waiting there on the couch saying I hope I fall for it, you don't have to fight for your blessing. No, but you are looking for a job and you say, Lord, you have to give me work, looking at dolls you won't get a job. Lord, I want a wife, but look, take a sister out to eat, faith without work is dead. Action in faith if a sister is there single not married, because that is another thing that is charging, Jehovah let my husband die to marry this brother here, that is not from God, it is that I have seen everything in the church , people praying that their husband dies so they can come out to this other person, that's terrible.

I'm going to preach to the church for the Holy Spirit, I've been married to the same guy for seven years, I have four kids, you know when you are single no one messes with you, when you are married everyone wants to go out with you, the devil is a liar, say holy hunger, holy hunger, Mathew chapter 5, Mateo capítulo 5, verse 6: Blessed are those who hunger and thirst, for they shall be filled. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for justice because they will be satisfied. There are people here who are in need of a miracle, there are people here who are in need of a touch from God, there are people here that are in need, the Bible says as the sky pants for the water currents, as the sky roars for the stream of waters, so my soul cries out for you God.

A situation that the servants are in the desert looking for water, or in another illustration, when there is a fire they get into the water, and the river takes them to places of salvation, as the sky hungers and thirsts for the water, so my soul hungers after You God, you need to be thirsty because all that are thirsty drink, those that are hungry eat, but you need to set your thirst and hunger to the presence of God, see, I believe in the glory of God, and I want God's glory to come, because everything I need brothers is in the glory of God, in the glory of God there is healing, in the glory of God there are miracles, in the glory of God there is provision, how many need financial miracles lift his hand. I have no debt, in bad economic times God has made me rich.

At the worst time God has blessed me, you know what, because I don't depend on the earth's economy, I depend on heaven's economy, and when you seek first the kingdom of heaven and all it's righteousness, all these things shall be added on to you, all, all of these things. My mother who was a prophet of God prophesied to me, the Lord tells you that the month of July will be open skies, the month of July brother the glory of God has manifested itself in a wonderful way, the month of September later we they handed over our five-bedroom, four-bathroom, 4,000-square-foot house, before that I was in a 1,000-square-foot house, with four kids, two dogs, and two cats, we were fighting there.

But when you are in the glory of God, everything you need is in Him. I learned a little secret because as an evangelist you have to, you are always looking for a church, we need an offering of this, that, I no longer preach for money or I look for preaching or anything like that, sometimes a check for a thousand dollars arrives at my house and I say what is this, the glory, say the glory, Isaiah 60:1 says: "Arise, get up, shine because your light has come, for upon you light has risen, his glory, and the glory of the Lord will be seen upon you." It is something visible that can be seen in your life, the glory of God, the glory of God, verse 61, rise and shine has come and the glory of the God is visible and shall be seen on your life.

So we preach and seek his face, I don't pray for money anymore, all you have to do is pray for his presence, they gave my wife a $25,000 Rólex watch, they saw the sister in church with a tissue paper, keep that there, my wife doesn't even know it's a Rolex, when we're at the hotel one day we were in a miracle service my wife opens the tissue oh my God, I mean how did you get it, I was praying for my Rolex and they gave it to my wife, but I'm giving you those testimonies because when you look for God everything that you want God gives it to you. I am at Mcdonalds, we were there and I was sitting and the seller asks what do you kids want for your nuggets, and these people come out eating apple pie, and he gave me that wow why didn't I buy an apple pie?, when They take out my food above two apple feet that looks like they were thrown away, I am just giving you that simple testimony but giving you a picture of what God does. God wants to bless you.

We were here 8 months ago, all these preachers were like wow what am I doing here, and they were all minding their own business praying to the Lord, and I say these people need divine healing, and when they put the part in at midnight I was going to make an announcement but I didn't, I was good, I was going to say blessed the pastor because he preaches short, hard-working and because they will invite him again. A brother took from 7 to 11 at night with four speakers behind him, I said oh my lord, when my turn came I said I'm not going to preach from 7 to 11, I'm fired, I said I'm gonna say I'm sick then go to sleep, but one girl there for 25 years, had lung cancer, when we prayed for her the power of God knocked her into the floor, we find out eight months later that she Got brand new lungs, brand new kidneys, she got a brand new lever, for 20 years she couldn't run because she had, her leg was broken in 15 places and she ran a run. So God gave her a re-creative miracle. The lion of the tribe of Judah if you need a miracle, He is in this place.

But you must be hungry, it has led me to different campaigns in different places, in that same year of 1997 Pastor Claudio Fraison from Argentina was at a convention of the Assemblies of God, I was in that hunger at that search, and he said God has sent you to this place like Samuel to anoint my David, when He said that God had spoken to me about David, when I heard that I fell, no one touched me, I fell alone to the ground, I I felt the impact of God, and he called the pastors to come and receive a touch from the Holy Spirit, and my dad, who was one of those in the rear, the old, he didn't believe in falling off the ground or anything like that, my papa fell to the ground face down and could not, he fell my dad fell he had never fallen before, stuck to the floor, and could not get up. He was there like that, when the pastor Claudio Fraison came, when the pastor prayed for me I felt like a breeze, like a cold that entered me, lightly, I fell to the ground, I was there hugging and praying, and he came back and He said pick him up, he took off my jacket, my shirt, they picked me up and 5 guys had to pick up my father, my father right now is 65 years old and he is studying, he has master's degree, ----19:45 ---- 12:00 p.m. ----

Oh pastor death, oops oops, and he says, no, what are you doing with this alcoholic, because when you arrive at a place God enters with you. ---- 12:32 PM ----

They were hungry, they needed God, maybe you and I, there aren't many people, we come tomorrow, but Ariel says today is the day, today, today is the day the Lord has made, today is the day that the Lord has made.

There was another moment, where there was a woman with blood flow, there was a woman with blood flow, and every time I preach this message it has happened to me three or four times, that when I have spoken of the woman with blood flow God He has healed a woman at the meeting with an issue of blood from four years ago. I am not a woman but imagine the female condition for 3, 4 years without stopping bleeding. It's not easy right? As a friend said it is not easy. It's not easy. A woman with a blood flow for 4 years learned that Jesus was in here. But he prayed through the crowd, the crowd is the barrier between you and God, but what are you willing to do to get to the other side. The barrier was the crowds that were around Jesus. The barriers mean the impediment, if you want something from God the impediments do not matter, the barriers that are in front of you do not matter, you have to get to where the Lord is, what matters is that you have to go where you want arrive.

Because many want ah you don't come for me, no, you come to the house of God, pastor pray for, don't eat. If only she touched the edge of her cloak, and the edge is the one that the Jews use on the tali, the prayer shawl, and they have some cords that are called Etistis, which represents the word, and she symbolically touched the word but not power went out. And when the Etistis touched her faith, she drew the healing power from Jesus. And He said who touched me? And she was desperate, she spent all her wealth, all her finances, she went from doctor to doctor, but it got worse, it got worse, not better, she was desperate for a miracle, she was hungry, she was desperate for God's touch in her life. But when she touched the Lord, her faith gave her the miracle she needed.

I want number one, you have to be adoring. When the praises go up the blessings come down. It does not translate well into Spanish but it means when the praises go up the blessing goes down. You need to be a worshiper. When Paul was in jail, they were worshiping the Lord at midnight, and at midnight Paul and Silas sang hymns, as they say they had been beaten up, because they had rebuked a demon from a python, they were in jail, they were in the darkest place, there was water and rats, it was cold, they were sore, they were bleeding, you and me, look Pablo, look Barnabas, it was your fault why did you cast out that demon, look where I am, I'm not going back to the church, I no longer preach, look what they are doing to me for preaching.

But instead of complaining they were worshiping God. Stop complaining and start worshiping God. Stop complaining and start giving glory to God, begin to worship God. I'm having marriage problems, poor me, I give him the tissue papers, oh my Lord. Holy hunger, holy desperation, and think, you have to believe in God. The bible says when all faith is not possible, when you come to believe that God is God, and that He wants to bless you, He wants to open doors not even imaginable to you, the king is the hunger. 1997, in the Bronx God opened doors, that would bless my family, my children, because you know what I said one day I wanted to preach at a church, I was preaching for four days and not even that was giving me enough to cover my bills, I'm toasting in my bed and I hear the voice of the Lord in my ear, ringing and ringing. There is nothing more valuable than the word of God, but first seek the kingdom of God and his justice, and all these things will be added to you.

I needed credit on my Walmart card and we went to see how much I had. I, who am a man of powerful faith, said there are 100 dollars, my wife said 50, when we go, we saw that there were 300 dollars there, we bought food there that lasted up to three weeks, we just did it, because when you don't express it, you leave it in the hands of God that will do it, when you do what God calls you to do, God will bless you, and the Lord has begun to teach us His little secrets, in the Kingdom they worship, hunger, desperation. ----35:00----35:55----

When we got there in Pensacola there was a line of people crazier than me. They were there singing, God guides you, send fire, they were all there sweaty, stinking mouths, After you preach the service you preach it, but look how delicious it is to see the brothers live in harmony. It is like the good oil that falls on Aaron's head and beard. The head means that the anointing goes from the head to the body, see the Bible stands here, God I'm hungry, God I need you to do something, then He gets up here, I want God and you know what that gets into the people. Look how good and how delicious it is to see the brothers dwell, but it is like the good oil that falls from Aaron's beard and runs all over his clothes.

Wherever the high priest went there was a fragrance,

There is this lady that I know that, she has her home and children and everything, and she is so blessed, and the Lord told me, you know why that lady is blessed?, because she gives to the poor. Imagine you had all that, and you know God always pays it, it is not like your brother down the block. He who gives to the poor lends to the Lord, that impacted me the other days that God spoke to me, but tonight we want to pray for all the people who say I want more, I am hungry for God. I want to pray for all the people, I have traveled here by plane specifically for you. Those that are hungry, those that are thirsty, and those that are praying for healing, whatever it is that you need, financial, restoration, reconciliation, children, husbands, whatever you need, because when the glory of God arrives to your life, God comes to solve your problem.

We are going to stand in the presence of the Lord, Father, we thank you tonight for your presence. Father we thank you for your glory, the visible manifestation of your presence, Father we thank you for the physical manifestation of glory, He's in us, He's on us, He's all around us, He's in this church, the bible says when two or more get together to pray, the glory of God comes down. We love you, we worship you, we hunger desperately, how many hungry people have you seen here in the line that although she had physical handicaps she said I am going to touch the teacher. What impediment do you have tonight? What impediment, what barrier tonight to break is there in this place? I want a divine break in this place, in your life, in your church, in your ministry, I have prayed for thousands of pastors who have received an impartation of the Holy Spirit, and are operating in miracles, in signs, the Bible says give for grace what by grace you have received.