New forces

SUMMARY: The author faced a difficult situation in which they felt they couldn't go on. They prayed for death, but the next day they found the strength to keep going. They realized that God had given them the strength and hope to continue living, and that if they had died, they would have missed out on many blessings. The author encourages those who are struggling to cry out to God with all their strength, as He has resources and blessings to help them.

Many years ago I faced one of the most difficult situations of my life. I will not share the details, but I will say that I was in a place against my will and that the circumstances in which my life was found and those of many others who suffered the same with me were terrible. We suffered constant harassment and we were threatened that we would never get out of there. At the age of twenty-two, coping with those conditions every day was very difficult for me. At first I had a good spirit, I was encouraged by the hope that soon everything would end, but little by little I fell into a depressed state that consumed my strength and put my faith to the test.

One night, after a tiring day at work, and after having contemplated a tremendous injustice without daring to do anything to avoid it, I felt so miserable that I thought I had reached the edge of my strength. When I finally lay down in the hammock that served as my bed, I covered myself up to my head and made the most desperate prayer of my life: "Lord, I don't want to wake up tomorrow, I don't want to live anymore, I don't have the strength to continue here!" .